Feels effing Good to be back!!

This blog has been my journal. My tag of good memories and bad. someday I will look back into all that was this blog - all the emotions that were poured in to color these pages and I know one thing for certainty - I would never regret creating something like this.. Ever!

But even among reasons there is a king reason. I got my heart broken. By a boy. By a boy who didnt think was capable of it. See the thing is this. There is a self obsessed part in the corner of the heart feels so much pain. You are subconsciously affected by it. You dream of this pain. You cry out loud. then it subsides; only to come tumbling over like a wave or a waterfall.

It gets better and then gets worse. colossal damage happens when you stop feeling; all feeling that you were liable to feel. It writhes away to glory.

Realization dawns; Sisyphus was no ordinary man! Neither are we.

Life goes on!!

Numbers and Me

well This is not a secret anymore..

Maths was my Favorite subject back in school. i used to score centums, solve a sum as soon as possible and enjoy looking around in class for people who struggle to complete it. All of this changed after I graduated my UG.

When I started preparing for CAT, the scare for numbers had just started creeping up. After that they were everywhere. in QA,DI even after I got here to XIMB. I have a bloody accounting quiz tomorrow and dunno what to make out of it.. head or tail.

and on top of it I am sleepy too :P

All I ask for..

Well today I realised what exactly I would want from my life, my goals – in fact more so from myself.
 1. A big hug every morning
 2. A job to toil for
 3. People to love
 4. A fabulous set of dress that will make your day, anyday
 5. A lovely pair of sandals to show off
 6. A surprise kiss, sometimes in the forehead too :)
 7. A lazy night with the stars, moon and a gentle breeze
 8. Couple of surprises in life, couple of hardships too
 9. Trust, friendship, strength and love

 As you grow older and wiser (ahem) you realise the strategic shift in priority. Things you considered not so important take a centre stage. A lot of time our decisions are affected by causes we sometimes have no clue about. At the same time it is these factors, that takes us forward in life.

Ever wondered when you stopped depending on your mommy and daddy and grew up far from them mentally? I think that stage of mine started soon after UG (it was there at UG too but I kind of had to put an end to it) I am currently doing a lot of mistakes (me and my choice of words) and learning from them too. I am in charge of myself. I know what is right and what is wrong. I am currently doing what I feel. And guess what it feels bloody great!!


(P.S wanted to elaborate more on part 6 but the location seems way outta league and I have a quiz tommorow :D)

JLT's and Other stuff

Everybody here thinks I am a mature person who does not emote so much and probably takes everything in my slide :) Ha Ha.. Aint it funny?

Well there probably is a reason why they think that Marks don't affect me anymore - cause i have craved for intelligence which leads u beyond these numbers. That street smartness which cannot be limited by rattofying what you'd do to clear a quiz...

Also cause gossips don't affect and I try not to gossip too.. I mean I understand how much it hurts when you talk about another person even for fun - how harmless words can break a heart.. I don't want to indulge in something like that. And I love those JLT's(Just Like That party's) where you can let your hair down and dance as stupid and as long as possible - anything's allowed as long as you enjoy yourself!! I thoroughly do. But I have gotta learn so much here and I have not even started :D



but Back to the basics now.. Had my sis and parents and my ladies been around they'd have laughed - I mean me and responsible? you are kidding right?

Cant Wait to fill them in with the stories. Chennai I miss you and I am coming to visit you soon :*

P.S I am writing this post after a long session of Emotional Quotient and Leadership talk at the audi where I was with PV, Saarpy, Vigneshwari and swetha in that order :)

I am mere HUMAN

I had my MEM exam today.. Had studied too much yesteray.. Pbly one of the reasons I thought I'd do well today.. But didnt

But the worst part aint that. We are still fighting :( My friend's got a near PPO from a guy who manages a consulting firm (and the firm works for MWR's M) and I never received the call I was expecting to receive..

So guess what I am going to do what I do Always :) Good Nightt

Me and XIMB

My dear darling blog
I know I am updating you after a long time. I am sorry. It is just that today I come before you and I hope that someday when I read this blog post again, wonder where the hell did I go wrong(again!!).
I will give you a glimpse of how a normal day @ XIMB is.
You get up anywhere b/w 6.30 to 7.30 of course depends on when you sleep the day before.
You brush your teeth, rush into bath, choose your dress for the day and then leave (with your bag) for the mess.
Have breakfast – well I learnt how to eat idly & vadai with a spoon. Isn’t that great? (I mean it is fairly simple. You just have to subtly cut the little white blob on your plate, let the white watery chutney wash it down, then pick it up, dip it in sambaar and put it into your mouth. Repeat same process for vadai until done.)
Then run to class. This is where I sleep or answer or stay pro-active or even listen depending on the kinda class that happens. Earlier we used to have a break after lunch so that was used to refresh ourselves for the evening classes and beyond!! But (yaar kannu pattucho) athuvum pochu. 5-6 hrs classes.. theliyavechu theliyavechu odhaikaranga..
Atha vida koduma is the mess ka khana khazana.. Half cooked or not even cooked lady’s finger, mushroom, soya and god knows there s one more vegetable whose seeds pop in your mouth. So after class you are tired. You either browse or do an assignment or prepare for a quiz or attend committee meetings or take an X-Walk or talk to your loved ones, skype em, or think of an initiative or plainly pull over your blanket and sleep. There are guest lectures, festivals, business formals and a lot of nice guys (well a l’l desperate too but you can’t blame them for that now can u? :P)
Life here is sure different. Made me think, made me wonder. But I ponder one thing constantly.
What is it that I want and How far am I willing to go get it?
(BTW the song ondra renda from kakka kakka is playing in the background!!)

Sleep my worries Away!!

Okie I am feeling a l’l weird today. Probably because I am not the heroine of the day. Well maybe.. maybe not. I am a l’l critical today, so if my tone reflects the same do mind.

It all started on Friday, 12th of August. Had loads of laughter after a funny dig at erm.. well you-know-who s and returned back to the room. Slowly ppl started leaving home.. one by one. The corridor was almost empty. Just me and my opposite aathukara…

You see in times like these you feel like having a person close. Someone you can authoritatively call up and tell them hey I am feeling so down, do talk to me’. Or anybody you can yell at or even flirt coyly with. Nobody.. a barren feeling that
starts from your heart, wrenches your gut and leaves you feeling weird..

So I decided to do something about it. (Okie I am procrastinating and I am not going to anything about it! ) I decided to sleep my worries away.. So that’s what I am going to do now. Pull my banket over and shut the rest of the world out. Good Night l’l darling.















And baby Get over it!!