SoulMates

I believe in soul mates..
I believe that in some part of the world is a person perfectly like you who'd fit in like the jigsaw puzzle.
That person who'd know things without even you having to explain to them and you'd feel ultimately happy when you find such a person..
And the chance of finding such a person is too remote infact more like non-existent..


But ever wondered what happens when you get to meet more than one such person in your one lifetime?????

Well legend has it that when there is a new birth your soul is formed from so many pieces from various parts of the universe that you cannot uniquely relate it to anything in particular. And because it is brought together from so many different people (as in your soul could have been a part of gladiator (in general sense a warrior) or gandhi or just a plain, nice,beautiful person [like me] :) ) - so you tend to feel the effect on you.

Also every person has an aura around them that changes its colors with its emotion - happiness,sadness,jealousy, fear and strength. They say the strength of your soul is reflected in your eyes...

And thats why it is deemed possible to meet more than one soulmate in your entire lifetime..

Also they say your soul feels the emotions of your soulmate. It can feel a bit of their pain, or pleasure or despair or a sense of fulfillment..
Explains why you feel happy or sad or even confused for no specific reason, sometimes (Well Im confused for the most part so the person responsible for a big chunk of my soul better be careful that I don't get to meet him/her :) )
And when you get to meet more than one soulmate in a lifetime they say you might experience pain.

The best Part is they even throw a hint on how to identify your soulmate(s - well soulmateS at your own risk though) :)
Simple just look into the eyes of the person
(okie for not so intelligent in reading eyes like I am there is another way I don know how far it ll work)
It says your soulmate emits a faint glow over their left shoulder
(Ha ha.. now don go looking for it - produces results varying from subtle looks to bad worded replies or even worse ha ha)

It continues to say that When you find (beats me!!) and fall in Love with (okie for that you have to be darn lucky mate!!) that soulmate- your Love frees the Soul and you tend to understand the universe and itz works better.. It also says that Magic, miracles are existent and even angels are happily singing around us, something each and every one of us can listen only if we stop and concentrate enough and pick up the omens..

Now "omens" is not a 666 movie my friends. In this context it means that God sends down a couple of well placed signals ;) e.g When you want to accomplish something and you are starting out - a butterfly flying past you is a great omen :) ( If you see one though!! or itz just as gr8 as it gets ;)
Well I think the butterfly gig sorta works coz I remember this particular day I really felt special about..
the rest??!! I wouldnt know.. Sounds feasible in a greater sense though..
Anyways even if you dont believe a word written up there you should probably pick up a Paulo Coelho (preferably brida / By the River Piedra I sat Down and Wept) - even if you don't agree with the concepts itz worth spending time with!!

P.S: For all those who think my "Single" status is going for a toss this is just to assure you that Iam perfectly fine and still enjoy the umpteen benefits of being Single... :)
Cheers till next post :)

Im Here!!!

Hi ya people It jus feels wonderful to be back blogging.. Jus realized how much I missed it.. I’m sorry for the BIG break..

Well what’s new with me?????

Im finally a proper s/w engineer – think you can beat that? I am a part of the crowd that gets to office by ten, leaves by eight/nine, complain bout the environment (tat covers almost everything around us) and finish work (now drop that surprised face ppl we work too :) ),try making something better for yourself but don’t do anything bout it (well tats me) crowning part is people just understand you are too stressed these days (oh yeah my biggest worry is when my TL/PL will let me go for the day :D :))

But the best part is – the access card. You get to ping yourself in and out (moans?? Hey when you are a fresher with <6 months of exp your progress inside is not monitored with respect to access cards- there are other ways of judging ya buddy something I can never bring myself to understand) and the other ping that’s the chatting that you get to do with your friends ;)

And the second best is having your own cubicle.. see that works more like a second home that u snuggle into once u get to office..
You have your own space that you get out only when you want a break. And it really reflects for what you are. You see neat workspaces, spaces loaded with fancy stuff or a plain idol right beneath your system (I find Ganesh bhagwanji still rules – and can make himself comfortable anywhere).. Mine has a small ganesha and my sis's gift and a bit of work happening in my desk :D
And for those who know me real well yes I find my share of good dudes here ;)
So keep it rocking till next time and yes I hope to post a lot more soon…

My Top 5

Guess I don have to define the Title..

5. Nature (My terrace) : If it had been a bodhi tree for buddha,Kasi for Sathus it would definitely be my terrace for me.. (as for the getting enlightened part err.. no sign of that) I have analysed myself in various situations there.. And the trees around know my joy, pain, anger, jealousy, crush, success, failure-you name it and they know it.. and Being a virgo you tend to think a lot.. (sometimes about stuff that is imaginary and sometimes stuff that are spiritual and something stuff that doesnt make any sense at all...) and my terrace offers the best comfort and a lot of breeze and a whole bundle of wisdom about life (but the warranty is so temporary believe me that the moment I step into real life it evaporates,leaving behind a very different feeling)...

4.Music
I love Music as it flows into my soul.. I cant stop moving to the music.. This could be because I enjoy dancing (im not a professional though.. so you probably wouldnt wanna see me do it injustice [:)]) I love letting myself go-care-free.. and I have a big list of songs that I love to groove to, also sing (Im not bad there though),or just listen on a rainy day or bad day or just a normal day.. They say Music heals and trust me itz so true..

Try this whenever you get time-- Lie back on a flat floor, listen to your favourite song and close your eyes while doing so.. (let me tell you-U can never explain the effect in mere words!!)
/*Do tell me how it feels like */

3.Novels (Category:Books)
For all those who associate novels with rainy days and hot samosas (with chilli sauce [:)] )-people you ve reached the wrong destination coz-I am a Book-Freak..
If you want me out of your way for sometime (I know itz harsh putting it that way-Being the sweet gal that Iam [:) ha ha] still) I would suggest you to get me a novel (preferably jeffrey Archer's or Robert Ludlum's or Arthur Hailey's). I ll forget food,water and have had many a scolding from my mom ( okie that happens when you are so involved in the story and happen to be on her way-which is like almost all the time.. )
But books played (still continue to reign in my life) a very large role in shaping my English,My communication and all the other " Wordly Knowledge" ( :) *wink* *wink*) that you can possibly gain from it..

2.Friends and Family:
I love people..
and my friends and family play a very large role in me being who I am..
My Parents have always been there for me (infact a lot more than they were for my sis [and sis I know you'd smile when you read this] ). and My Sis has been special ( I never do anything without her but the best part is that we talk about "everything under the sun" )

My Friends are people with whom I share everything.. Wonderful People who I have fun times and senti times with.. I am blessed with a handful of great friends and what more can I ask for?!!
























1. .................?!!!
[:)]

My Poem To My SIS

Tides ebb and flow
my Times are high and low
without YOU my life has been slow
And the sheen has lost its glow!!
far above my sky is dull and grey
oh! sadness, i ve fallen itz prey!!
Im looking for the hopeful ray,
That will keep my worries at bay!

The stars points me to unseen yonder,
Where does it lead-I can only wonder!
All I can do is to wait and see-
Nothing’s gonna change,hey its jus me!
I know this poem is stupid and funny
But it doesn’t matter as long as it makes you smile honey!
i want you to listen to something true-
My DearEST SIS-I Jus MISS U

My Blonde Moments!!

I believe every human being is entitled to their own blonde moments.. I tend to think that it is moments like these that make life worthwhile.. (what other choice do we have anywayz)


FYI-My hair Color is Black (pun not intended!!)


(for all those who cant make it out -This is supposedly a collection of all the stupid things I did-the level of stupidity clearly differing from stage to stage)

* I would have probably been 3 years old when this happened..

I have a sis who is 4 years elder to me and pretty dear to me that I used to follow her around where ever she went [I even used to enjoy dropping her off to school until I had to wear that uniform myself :( ].. It was on one such day when our house gate was open (I could never reach it, mind you!) and I continued my usual ritual of following my sis around.. I would have walked to the end of our road in some 7 minutes or so when the grocery shop owner there (our family friend) called me and gave me a candy.. Happy with the candy I totally forgot my ritual..

My parents then came searching for me all worried and afraid - relieved to find me in that grocery shop.. Seems like I had been following someone else around...

How would I find the difference if this gal I had been following has the same color skirt my sis has?!!!

* Next best incident I remember is running in front of a car that was just getting out of the parking lot.. I had run all the way out with the car chasing right behind me only to realize I had been in itz way all along..

I would have been in my 5th std - We were holidaying somewhere-staying in a hotel - choose to go sight seeing- get to the parking lot to get into the car..

The best part is I was holding my father's hand until I saw the car coming and then released my hand from his grip (he was jus trying to prevent me from doing somethin as stupid as I then did :) and I ran all the way out to parking lot....

* It was one heavy rain season.. Our street was flooding with water and hadn't dried up even after 2 days of sun showing up.. But my school allows sandal option for these rainy seasons only upto 2 days.. So on the 3rd third I was all ready with my white socks and black shoes.. And the water was flowing too... My parents were shouting suggestions bout I should remove my socks and shoes so they ll be dry when i cross the pool and put them back later on..

Half listening to them (Me being the good gal) removed my socks kept my shoes on and braved the water..

Result?! I had dry sock, a wet shoe and a bunch of people laughing at my innocence ?!!!!

Even when I was young I had so many innovative & curious doubts that nobody else can never think of.. Sample this - I asked my parents Which day does 'Good Friday' fall on?!!!

Recently I met my senior working in the same company as i was.. We caught up with a lot of stuff and her Colleagues caught up with her (note this point - FATE must be smiling at me right now) before she left she asked me what domain you are in.. Too worked up about the knowledge I had obtained I replied with great confidence - Retail..

Her colleagues threw a nasty look at me and she goes all like - no ,no! im asking something that relates with languages like java, C, DataBase and I grin sheepishly and say- .net

Im sure Uperwale is Rolling on the Floor and Laughing

Courtesy: ME !!!

(snigger!!)

My GalGang!!

I recently met up with my best Friends from College - the gals with whom I spent a significant part of my Life, who shaped me and taught me various things at different point of Time..
I call them SG-Y-P...
SG - Thala..
I met her the First Day of my college.. Infact even before I saw college I saw her.. She was sitting on the wooden bench in my station (we used to get to college by train).. To be truthful I didnt even hear her name properly (learnt her name on the second day though :) ) We talked all through our journey of about an hour and were surprised to see both of us put up in the same class (the first semester classes are generally a mix of students from all departments..), and even more so when I heard she had chosen the same dept too.. We grew close in 6 months irrespective of the fact that she was sitting with different people and so was I (Hey I am a proud back-bencher)
SG was a strong gal.. She taught me the joys of Bunking college. I still remember my first time- Exactly the friday of the third week of my college - her mind was set, her bag packed,but I was afraid.. She gave me a scolding(closed my ears for that one!!),packed my bags and in a jiff got me out.. We have bunked a lot of afternoons to watch movies, just to talk or go back home and sleep.. She had the maturity of the elder sibling but always had fun with the rest of us.. Had a great passion for dancing,singing.. Her best aspect was her skills in Mehendi (We won a competition in college)

Y-420..
If you had told me Y and I were gonna be best buddies I would have laughed at you big time.. coz all we did the first few months we met were to fight.. Y was more like me - and we used to fight for the silliest of things.. and we have never given that up entirely..
Y had a great dress-sense.. She looked pretty homely too (infact she had so many secret admirers). She had this cool head in her shoulders (something very useful coz Im a big nervous nut ). Infact she and SG shared a passion for dance-they made a great team.. She was a mix of characters-she'd be your honey bear when she likes you and quite opposite so when she doesnt..
Very Studious though - we get to our college by 7 for a 10 o'clock exam just to listen the content of the 3 units we had left.. I ve passed many a exam because of the gals combined effort :)
she ll give you great advice (ha ha sorry Y, ButI still remember us sitting in canten talking about ''Worldly Stuff'')

Imagine a normal day in college(forget the classes they never happen [:)] ) the last bench thats way far from the board.. Our day begins with each of us wondering what to talk about stumbling on a wierd topic and going places from there.. Our bench was foster house where we had lunch (our's and other's), played, slept, drew, and lots more..

P joined us near the end of the second year and She was the fourth accomodation to our bench... One thing that strikes about P is the absence of fear. She is bold - nothing worries her.. She gets to college by 8.45 (my college starts 15 mins earlier) and that has been her ritual right from the first day(even in first year when we hadnt grown out of school disciplinary system) She has zero stage fright, made great presentations and a silent spectator in most of our gal-chats..

In fact these gals were my pillar of strength for so many days in so many ways.. There is no topic under the sun that we have not talked about.. We had our bad-times too, our shortcomings, jealousy, anger, disappointment but I think they just made our bond even more stronger..

When I look Back Im just Glad I found these gals - This is my way of thanking you for whatever you have done..
Love Ya ForEver
Yours
V....

My favourite part from the movie- 10 Things I hate About You!!

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big, dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick — It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh — Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you're not around. And the fact that you don't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you — Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Change Changed ME !!

You ve Changed!!!
This is what Every Single of my college friends who see me in the company keep telling me..
I ll tell you the reason behind it.. Itz rather simple too...
If you had seen me in my college days you would be amazed to see a rather conservative-looking girl who wears her dupatta not unlike draping a shawl in bitter cold!!
I had comparitively longer hair and I usually don't like to leave it open so It'd either be plaited or pony-tailed (both make me look geeky-dorky types)
We had a close group that I'd move with so not many people knew me!!
Obviously was mistaken for being arrogant (he he,Im really good you know!!) and I was way less confident.
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I cut my hair-Itz shoulder high now so I enjoy letting it free.
I developed my confidence like some 60%
I dressed up in clothes that Im comfortable in (I love kurti's - short and long - with formal pants)
I learnt irrespective of whatever you do people will still criticise you so why not do the the thing that you love and be criticised - It works yaar!!
I learnt that you can be all alone and still not be bored!!
I learnt that to learn something you have to ask questions-Even if they are darn Stupid..
I learnt that you have the right to TRY and FAIL (thank you Mrs.Vatsala Narasimhan!!)
Last but not least I learnt to love music...


Oh, Yes!!! I have Changed
Afterall I am a different person now..

My Day Today

Well today was a typical day-something thats become my routine like nearly a month now-

went to office,

chatted with friends,

listened to class in between,

had lunch (well to all those that do not know.. lunch happens to be a pompous affair for us coz thats wen we get to-gether)

got back to class ,

/* played Truth or Dare (had so much fun coz thats when you get to know a lot about a lot of people!! and honestly we did get to know a lot about each other.. )

then celebrated a friend's birthday at cafeteria*/ and

rushed to catch the bus back home (stopped the bus-Litertally!!)

/* - stuff that doesnot happen everyday(Well we play everyday with variation in levels of fun and we celebrate 25 birthdays that are spread over a year!! [the luckier ones get it during the training period and the rest later!!!] :-)

We are a batch of 25 people with varied interests(the sad part-most of the batch is committed!! sigh :(
but we are a great group and the building where my training happens plays host to a lot of companies-silver lining in my grey cloud huh!!)
Right now We as a gang are enjoying our days-there is training going on by the side of course but the stress part comes near the end of the month so until then follower our thailvar's principle-
"Sagara naal therinja Vaazhara naal naragamagidum" ;)
(roughly translates to life will become hell if you know wen u are gonna die so enjoy now!!)

Cheers till next time !!!

This is ME-the confused version

As I sit before my blog a lot of things just cruise aroud in my mind!! I sip my lemonade and think of the latest thing that bothered me and I realize Im letting myself be bothered by so many things that would not even be a part of my equation in 2 days time...

To cut the long story short I let myself worry until my hair colors grey overnight [:)]

I worry about saying the right things(But mostly end up doing the opposite...)

I worry about giving the right impression(to be honest I end up messing it too!!!)

I worry about my actions-if I might have indirectly affected someone.

I worry about taking right decisions.

I worry about crafting right Practises.

I worry about using the right words, meaning exactly what I wish to mean(Tough Luck!!)

Infact I relate the one-liner to my life that goes like- From the Frying pan Right into the Fire..

Im yet to realize that there is nothing called the RIGHT way-It is either learning from your wrong ways or not learning at all..

G O D !!

Do you Believe in GOD?

Take two minutes to answer that question..
and FYI: Im not an Atheist!!

And before you decide I just wanted to share 2 wonderful stories!!


The First one:

A four-year-old child, whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman, who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy just said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry.'



The Second one:

An eye witness account from New York City , on a cold day in December, some years ago: A little boy, about 10-years-old, was standing before a shoe store on the roadway, barefooted, peering through the window, and shivering with cold.

A lady approached the young boy and said, 'My, but you're in such deep thought staring in that window!''I was asking God to give me a pair of shoes,'was the boy's reply-The lady took him by the hand, went into the store, and asked the clerk to get half a dozen pairs of socks for the boy.



She then asked if he could give her a basin of water and a towel. He quickly brought them to her. She took the little fellow to the back part of the store and, removing her gloves, knelt down, washed his little feet, and dried them with the towel.By this time, the clerk had returned with the socks. Placing a pair upon the boy's feet, she purchased him a pair of shoes. She tied up the remaining pairs of socks and gave them to him. She patted him on the head and said, 'No doubt, you will be more comfortable now.'



As she turned to go, the astonished kid caught her by the hand, and looking up into her face, with tears in his eyes, asked her . 'Are you God's wife?'


Decided Yet?!!!

Define Strength -

Light at the other End of the Tunnel!!

Imagine yourself in a position where You find yourself travelling on a serene road... There is no tension or confusion-not even a drop of worry.. you are enjoying the wonderful scenery.. lost in itz sheer beauty. there are trees on either side of the road that are branched out enough to block most of the sunlight out of your eyes.. Itz sufficiently cool with a light breeze.. You walk down the road and suddenly the trees are less, the roads barren, the sun hot and the path rough...



The sudden change stirs up different emotions in me- part of me is adventurous, the other part a l'l scared to accept the change. But Instinct urges me forward and my steps are Cautious.. Im reminded of my earlier mistakes and I fervently hope I dont repeat them again..

But deep down Something tells me this will pass- I will enjoy this road just like I did the one before..



We all have these stages in life- Remember when we were in Kindergarden-Our parents dropped us at school- hey I was great until she dropped in in-until I found everybody around me crying.. I cried too my mom left me..(heck I don't even the way back home!! and my burly teacher didnt help either [:)] )

But We moved on at school and made friends and fought over perfumed rubber.. Those teacher's-pet days, rivalry, four lined notebook, home-lunch,G K one-word mug ups, map-place identifications...
Now I wouldnt honestly say I loved school but it sorta grew up on me that I couldnt let myself take a holiday coz I didnt want to miss the action.. Made 100 sack load of mistakes.. found wrong friends- there is this one time when we were in standard 4- we had a girl who was tall and she headed a gang, To be a part of her friend list was an honor in itself.. I was her Best Friend for years but one day she looked the other way!! Today she is a gal that is totally opposite of what she used to be-though we are never as good friends as we were but Life moved on and I found others..

Then it was when I stepped into my college- no idea of what ragging will be(though enthusiastically looking forward to it becoz it is a great way to break ice b/w seniors and juniors..) - But would you believe me if I tell you my seniors-as a part of ragging-made me finish their records especially the one with complex structural designs (that Im sure even they didnt understand!!).. But once again- I never loved college- It grew upon me to such a level that I acually missed college real bad after I got out of it.. Strange But True..

Again 10 months was bliss but my worry-bear caught up with me when I joined the company.. But hey if I have not learnt anything in the past 20 years I havent done much right.. So I decided to change one thing that I didnt know would change my Life..

People call it Attitude (Big word that scares me) - But I prefer to call it looking at life..

I read somewhere- You cannot always choose what you get in life.. But You can Always choose to like it.

So did I see a Change- too early to say- But Im enjoying every moment of life.. I keep telling myself Im going to win this thing no matter how hard I have to work.. I keep telling myself that this phase will pass..

If you ask me what Strength is I would tell you Itz not the lack of fear!!

It is the ability to make right decisions and go ahead with it-irrespective of the fear that might pull us down!!!

I have fear-I am afraid too - but hey Go Ahead and put up a bold face irrespective of your fears becoz nobody can tell the difference [:)]!!!!

Tell Me what This is...

First of all I would like to thank people who had written comments about my article- Its gud to recieve 'em..
Now to my story..
It was Friday and I m sitting in my Company bus all alone-no mp4 to listen to-no books to read- all bored.. Im praying for a friend or some stranger who might give me company till I get home..
Then I open my eyes I see a guy taking up a seat next to mine..
He wants to know if the bus will go to his area- I say yes and with a little arrogance of knowing somthing the other person doesnt knw I ask him- Is it your first day?
He tells me- In his bus,Yes!!
I take a peek at his card-seems different from mine!! So I ask him- How long have you been with the company, He says- 5 years(You should have seen the look on my face!! I felt sheepish coz I had been there for 5 days only!!!)
Said he was in Onsite for 2 years then he's come here will go there again in a few months..
I get my sense back a l'l now so I ask him- Where is this place that you have been to, He says-Chicago, so I go like-Ha! U.S.-Everytbody dream destination.. he smiles and we continue talking for some more time about U.S, his job,my training, the stress involved, the domain,the recession and stuff like that..
Then the topic moves on to how weekends become pretty important now that you ll be working for all 5 days and what we generally do on weekends..
He's a typical software typo who speaks with a pretty low voice that betrays no emotion..
So by now We are nearing the place where I have to get down!! I wish him all the Best on his ventures and he wishes me all the best on my training
and then he says- I cant come everyday in this Bus because My work keeps me busy but I guess I can manage coming in this one every friday..
I ws thinking like ha ha What?!! Am I listening Right?
Hey Krishna!! What a way to end the week..
To be Truthful I do not now if I might ever see him again but It was a wonderful adventure that I wanted to share it here..
P.S: Fridays don come early do they?!! [:( ] [;)]
Happy Weekend and a Great Week there-after..

My First Corporate Week

I joined the corporate world this monday-the 16th of march!!
What a week it had been...
We are a batch of 55 people who reported on the first day to our venue-we were a mix of people from chennai,bangaloru,punjab,kerala and so.. the morning half went as we had to complete signing the agreements and code of conduct and more confidentiality documents and stuff like that..
We were a confined group that stuck with our friends from our college- nobody made intro's till afternoon(aftre the complementary lunch in the cafeteria!!). I guess even that intro stuff was our HR's idea(He was one metro sexual guy who bravely wore pink!! and sorta flirty cute [:)] )
Then we played virtual volleyball-I was the proud Cap'n of one team and my schoolmate the Cap'n of he other-they WON!!!! but it was in itself so much fun!!
Then we played two more games then the banks took over- we opened an account and we were off for the day!!
The next day we were seperated into batches- There were 30 in my batch- and the next two days was something called "Corporate Survival Skills" workshop- 2 full active days to get to know your team and batch mates.. we told a story-made presentations-adjusted to each other- pulled each other's leg- kept making new teams-made paper boats in teams-analyzed case studies-made a 3D car from purely chart papers and sketch pens!! Two days of pure fun and ecstacy!!

Then they changed our batch again-this time I was reshuffled to a new one along with 12 of my team-mates.. We felt really bad and I guess this seperation brought us even closer!! We lunched together and met up and chatted whenevr possible..
In between all of these experiences I have had a chance to get to know people even more better- there is guy who was in my school till 10th then left it to join somether school and college and when we got to gether again I was amazed to see a Sea of change in him- He was a person who used to be a sorta rough in school(pretty lazy and arrogant and would never submit home-work or class-work[Im a miss-goody-two-shoes]) Now he is a confident guy that knew what he wanted, someone with a great attitude and the enthusiasm to enjoy life and to love evrything it provides you!!
Also there is there are guys like- comedian, calm at first but seriously funny guy who cracks jokes with his face straight and damn calm-nothing gets him worked up, a studious guy who does roadies kinda strategic planning(likes all-speaks to all- but trusts nobody!!!) and the gals- like one who is outgoing-has trillion friends and makes more, one who is a calm,spiritual thing and a few intelli people and a few more..
The first week has been great.. Im hoping to fall in love with Everything life offers Me Too!!!

The M- word

You guessed it right. (For all those who cant-itz a word that is synonym with commitment,adjustment, growing up). why did this come up inbetween? Well I definitely have a good reason for that-trust me in this one(okay maybe you cant- but hey this is my blog so just go with my flow right?)!! I had been to the wedding of one of the gals in my gang. The truth being hers is not the first one. We had 2 other gals get married sometime in the last 3 months-one of these gals literally gave me a shock when she sent me her marriage invitation coz my impression of her was that she was ambitious,flirty (healthy flirts-and stays within her limits) and modern, independent(totally my point of view). I thought she would want to work for a year or so-meet more guys:) then find herself someone suitable- I was proved wrong. She's married and happy in U.S. and mainly doesnt have any regrets(I think so).


This particular friend of mine has a different story. Her's is a love marriage. They knew each other for some two years even though they were family friends(the guy was in s'pore I guess that would explain the reason they ve not crossed each other's paths long before). they spoke on the pretext of her joining a MS course abroad and the relationship grew- their parents were happy enough to learn bout the guy in s'pore-got her married off. I would not say she's not happy But I think she's young atleast a l'l.


Now Im not a hater of marriages but I for one can never understand the concept behind them. be it Love marriage or Arranged ones. Both seem just the same except the fact that in the first one you have a inkling of what you are getting into-the second (ha ha!!) you simply cant imagine at all.


So Why do we get married?


There is a dialogue in the flick-"Shall We Dance" and it goes somewhat like this- "Itz not bout love or passion that drives us to get married. Sometimes we feel so lonely i this big planet that you want to have someone witness your life, someone to say I share your life, I am proof of your happiness,your sadness,your victory,your defeat, everything that you go through in life. Thats why we get married" ha how true!!


The next question my friend(with whom Im discussing the whole thing) asks me- So you think there is no concept of true love?


Before I can answer that I wish to confess that Im a big fan of "mills and boons" novels. the writing makes you go weak in the knees, makes you think of all good things life has to offer like cotton candies, rainbows, candle-light dinners, undying love- hey it doesnt help when you are writing a blog and still have after-effects of watching the movie -"While you were Sleeping". I like romantic flicks too.. end up going awww at the end of every happy ending and sometimes wish I could find myself a hunk who's rich, tall,dark and handsome,who will falll hopelessly in love with me and always do the right things(translate it to things I expect!!). Ha fair Chance m'Lady!!


The truth is I realize within a hour of my after-effects wearing away I can never spend my life with the ideal guy-coz that situation wants you to be a ideal feminine.. I can never be that(heck thats why itz called ideal right!!) I have my own faults-everybody does.

I know of so many of my friends who if given a choice would get married to their close friends (of opposite gender people!!! [:)]) just because they are comfortable with them. And frankly I think you fall in love with a person when you realize that you want to spend the rest of your life with them. So when you don't end up with the one you choose you probably feel bad, but time heals and before you realize you find yourself happy with this new person who understands you too-just in a different way.

Okie to the true love question!

I have a theory- I get up in the morning and have a ritual of walking in my terrace until the sun gets in my eyes. I was terribly afraid of crows(I still am) and there is this one dark thing that sits near our dish and keeps staring at me. Initially I was irked by its presence but slowly it grew up on me.. somedays I wouldnt see it all and somedays it would be there waiting for me.. I missed it when it didnt come-Yes I fell inlove with a crow [:)].

So here's the theory researched and developed by me- When you are constantly with someone it grows into a habit. When you lose them or when they go away it feels bad-but you always find someone new to share yourself with. and I believe every time you do that is true love. It doesnt come once and hey If you ask me its okay to have a couple of special people[not the same time folks]-itz afterall one life to live you know!!

And if people were to only marry the ones they love then only 10% of people would have a family!! (coz I read in a survey that 10% of lovers get successfull and end up in marriage-subject to increase in this GEN!!)

Just someone who will be there to say hey! nothing is lost and Itz ok to make mistakes-We will enjoy them(irrespective of the damage they ve done).


Someone with whom you can laugh about your own mis-givings,

Someone with whom you can act silly and still enjoy it,

Someone you can turn to when you feeling terribly low or high, Someone who's comfortable with you and you are comfortable with even when the both of you find yourself at the end of the world!! (too much of mills and boons influence [:)] ).



totally my point of view-tell me Am i asking much?

My third phase of life-CAT- An Experience that changed Me

Now back to where i left out!! It was March 08- I was returning home from a when my cousin brother had dropped in. He is a guy with some 10 yrs of work-ex in IT combined with trips to belgium,france,hongkong. Infact he was the first person in our family to work for a s/w concern and get a 5 digit salary and is intelligent-so itz normal that we juniors look up to him(plus he looks a lot cuter too). He and I shared a Great brother-sister relationship coz of 2 reasons-1. I talk a lot and he doesnt,2. We are like-minded and share a bond that brings a teacher-student together-he talks,I listen.

We were talking about various fields,about corporates, IT fields and the topic somehow turned to my future goals and ambitions and bout my plans for higher studies. We were talking bout Management and itz benefits.. Well the urge to MBA seed was sown!! We decide that i would talk to a few people who had done their MBA and also consult some of the coaching institutes that offer CAT/XAT courses. The Final decisition would be mine.

As I started gathering info I found losing myself to this parellel world that I was so long oblivious to. I was attracted to CAT-Infact I wouldnt stop talking about it. I wanted to be a part of the community.. I said to myself if I am going to do anything with my Life-This Is It.

CAT became my obsession. But I had my set of hurdles too....

Job cuts and more

The article is something I read this morning was about how half a million jobs were being cut-and how India will have to take them in her folds,provide them with some kind of assistance to stay afloat. The situation sounds grim. What worries me is the plight of people who lose their jobs without prior notice and those who wake up to go to work everyday with constant fears as to what might happen today?
I also read about an article in a weekly that explained two senarios-1. A couple working in s/w industry lose their jobs nearly same time. The guy feels bad about having to treat his children to staple food like rice instead of their daily accoustomed pizza, burger and the rest.
2. A project Lead loses his job,has a pregnant wife back home with no money to spend. They had stayed hungry for some one and a half days before they could find help.
Tell me what does the above tell us?
1. Are our morals blind-folded by the desire the kind of money software offers that irrespective of knowing that it might not stay for long we are still in the business?
2. Have we forgotten the rules of Spending-saving?
No Im not against the s/w industry that has given our country progress and brought a increase in our stature of living. But are we sane enough-not to let it control our minds?

contd...

So there I was lookin like a duck that had lost itz family when one of the gals came up to me and invited me to the last bench coz she thought I looked like a chicken in a grvy pot-ready to be eaten anytime :). I hesitantly took up her offer(Im galad I did). the rest of the day was all about chitter-chatter and gossip.
The one thing good about belonging to a section of under-performers is that your faculty have no-expectations from you- Infact they are glad to find you attending their class [doesnt matter much if you sleep through the entire recital :)]. We bunked classes-watched a lot of movies,spent all our money on canteen food, never completed assignments, never completed lab-portions and had the License to flirt with all the good-looking-canteen-staying- (the list never ends :D).

My buddies-this is for you

Our class had a strength of 60 and we had 2 sections totally accounting to 120.. and Yup we were divided. It was the form form of dividng students-Using Merit. The 60+studs who cleared their first year subjects without any arrears were put up in section I and the rest in section II.
Oh Come on What is college without a few set of Arrears huh?
Well our management wouldnt hear of it so here I was in sectionII. Looking around widely coz I knew no-one.
But You wouldnt believe if I tell you this was the class that I had the most of Fun, It was here I met my Best friends and It ws these people that stuck with me through thick and thin..
Guyz I thank you for everthing you have done and I love you and miss you in many ways for many days.

I took up pencil Sketching in my holidays-an expression to my Existence. No Im not philosophical though.. Our batch had more than 5 months before we could join a Engineering college so had to pick up a hobby and this came naturally..

Finally college se bulaava aa gaya tha. My college is at a travel distance of an hour and so. that remind yoursef would have been the longest distance i had travelled alone(coz I told my dad that now that I was in college I would take care of my affairs).

True-My college had taught me lessons of life-something that made me grow up look at the rest of the world in a very different perspective than the one I imagined. the Flip side was it also pushed me into a tight cellar that took me four years(and counting to get out of it).

The first Day of my College-the campus ws lush green,right next to a famous deemed university. The first years had a seperate block in a way were sheilded from the eyes of out seniors(reason 1-ragging,reason 2- hook ups(the senoirs were really friendly and more often than not we find a junior walkin with a senior alone to canteens or bus-stops and the college was not particularly fond of that!! and predominantly every class had a couple in itself or outside)). We were a Gang of 10-4 gals and 6 guyz. Became pretty good friends by the end of Week1 and were a part of the ADZAP team in happening Symposiums. But the joy was short-lived.

We were from differnent groups-some from ComputerScience(CS) ,Electronics, InformationTechnology put toghether coz the First sem ws common to all the groups!

So end of 6 months we were introduced to a new set of students with same specialization-CS. The problem was that the first 6 months a lot of people had settled down that nobody was ready to make new friends or even give it a shot in the next few weeks.. But hey Unfamiliarity breeds couriosity,gossip so thats how we got together as a class.. but Fate Struck Again!!

My Life

I am the last child in my family. that makes me eligible to be pampered by my family-a big one mind you. So itz more like the WYSIWYG(what you see is what you get) concept with a few constraints. My thatha dropped me at school everyday until i was in grade 3. Though the school was some 5 min walk from my place, I never cared to learn the route coz I had a adult supervision-that character of mine still is the same. My school was not something you'd call strict-you can have fun if you want to.. but hey I was(I tend to believe that i still am,irrespective of those 4 yrs in coll last bench nothing has changed) very obidient. I was my teacher's pet-one other thing that i constantly was-a Dancer. I was a part of the cultural event(Dance ALways) because i love to dance and i love to bunk classes whose attendance are accounted for.

FRIENDZ?

Well Im a Virgo and like all my virgo friends I find that no matter how hard I try, there is always this vacuum that none of my friends can fill-some of it my fault,I guess.Still had a bunch of people you can drop by to chat to,to confess about your crushes and jealousy(each time each person,coz itz a potential difficulty of confiding in one person that makes you so vulnerable-also you take the risk of crushing on the same person you friend crushes too!!)

I had my set of people crushing on me too.. See thats the gud part. You like someone and someone somewhere likes you too..

But the concept of Boyfrnd-Galfrnd was too alien to me at that point in time.So I was Single when I stepped into my glorious coll..

sneak-peek ;)

Im a 20+engineering graduate who made it to the corporate sector through campus interview. I had my life planned-or so I thought. the one thing worse about graduating during recession times is that even though you get ur letter there is no news about your date of joining.you wait and wait until you realize that waiting has done no good at all. so you wake up and before you are ready you recieve a call. great going huh?!

well okie i might be a l'l different coz i decided to use my break(thats how i call it-9 mnths of doing nothin becomes meaningful when you give it a name,aint it?). I enrolled for a CAT coaching class. It was an eye-opener(come on, where else do you find smart GEN-Y's coming together). The classes were great-so many short-cuts,so many realizatns,a lot of knowledge gathering and a bunch of laughs. I learnt my plus and minus. I made a couple of great friends too. I attended all those mock exams and thought i have a big deal to go before i get qualified to take up MBA. I t was true. though i made a 93% in CAT and XAT I lost out on a couple of colleges. and here iam again hopin to sit for CAT 09-going through all that process again,trying my luck. Man, I need to Get IT!!

Hi all-

My very first post. Feels great to be a part of the community.
ME-????
Well Im just a Day-Dreamer, a person who thinks a lot about so many stuff around ends up enjoying the process. so the next time you are in a queue and you find someone day-dreaming think of Me
Chao for now :)